Mondays are my work-from-home days. It essentially means I hang out around my computer for seven hours, write copiously, arrange my schedule, post a shit ton on the internet and schedule posts for later in the week, and in general get shit done. I wear pajamas for the first part of the day and I drink about four cups of coffee whilst staring at a computer screen.
It’s kind of a weird life we live in now, that we are simultaneously more connected and disconnected. There’s more knowledge about the whereabouts of other people but less intimacy. There’s more information and less depth.
When I was a kid and growing up, I got the shpeal that most of us millennials did: “You can be whatever you want to be.” I was encouraged to try everything and reminded that nothing had to be permanent. Didn’t like what was going on in the sport? Switch sports. Didn’t like what was happening in my friend group? Switch friend groups.
And while this has served me well in many facets of my life in letting go of that which did not serve me, it has hindered me in other ways.
For example: I have never been broken up with, so I don’t know the heartache that goes along with it. My motto has always been: stay until it’s uncomfortable, then bolt.
It also means I changed my major like a billion times in undergrad. And that I went to graduate school for something completely unrelated (Master’s degree: exercise science; Bachelor’s degree: visual arts).
It also means that I have a little knowledge about a lot of things, but not a lot of knowledge about one subject. Because anytime I get bored I run, I change jobs, switch careers, and I know that the next best thing is just over the horizon. If only I found that one thing that was different – well that would be the difference between mediocrity and blindingly happy.
But the thing is, if you just keep running in different directions, you never find your stride. Maybe you’ll get some wild agility, but you won’t really get anywhere but back to where you started. You’ll constantly be a beginner and never a master.
I’ve stuck with yoga since 2007, when I first started teaching in gyms. I dove in deeper in 2013, when I gave up running after a terrible marathon experience and traumatic move and I needed a change. I invested in it in 2014 with my first 200 hour training, dove even deeper with a second 200 hour training in 2015 and 2016, and now…
Now I’m fully committing to advancing my education with a 500 hour training.
One of the biggest lessons I’ve learned from yoga is this: stop running. Physically, I needed to stop running to allow my body the opportunity to rest. Emotionally, I had to stop running and learn to be still.
Stillness is frikin’ hard, guys.
What yoga has taught me is: movement is good. Depth is better. Stillness is ideal.
If you constantly flit from yoga posture to yoga posture, you never give yourself the opportunity to truly experience it. If you’re convinced that another place would give you more satisfaction, you will never find it.
But in stillness – in stillness, you start to learn to relax into it. To be uncomfortable and in it and unmoving. It requires much discipline and much practice, and in its own way, it is much more challenging than even an advanced vinyasa practice.
I’m applying these lessons to my career. I’m committed to being less of a flight risk, and more of a person who sticks around. I’m going deeper into my yoga knowledge, and away from my aversion to commitment.
I’m still not practicing stillness (I’m flying to Portland for these trainings), but I’m heading into more depth, which is my next step. Stick around to see what I’ve learned. ❤
So tell me:
- How will you experience more depth this week?
- Where can you stop your agility training and start picking up your stride?
Namaste my yogis!